I keep finding myself in places I'd never thought about being. Like shopping for prams and cots. And then, last night we went to our first parentcraft seminar, mostly on breastfeeding. So there you go then. When did you last find yourself somewhere new?
More seriously, a couple of people recently challenged me on the way that I can come across kinda quiet and unfriendly when I meet people. Part of me wants to blame that on "extroverts not being able to handle people who aren't loud like them", but to be honest it's a fair critique of me. The introvert label suits me when I want it, but truth is I can talk for days when I want to about things I want to with people I'm more comfortable with, and yet often when I meet new people I hold back and fail to be interested.
Luther's definition of sin cuts me deep in this. He said: sin is man curved in on himself. The Spirit-changing work I need is to come out of myself and be more other-centred, less selfish, more loving, more human. That's somewhere new for me to go, and I want to go there - even today.
And relatedly I'm really thankful for the two people who called me out on this in the last fortnight. Making that kind of observation of my life was a real gift to me and it would have been really easy for them to have not said anything and in so doing to have not loved me as much. Change happens in small steps but I'm up for it. If you meet me, help me. Either way, please pray for me.